hope its another beginning

yea i know its been ages i didnt update my blog
well, after congratulation on jonathan for the best collection of his graduation show, i would like to start everything from 1st of april

1st of April
3pm, i parked my car in a proper way in PJ uptown
3.15pm, i got up to my car n found out that my car’s window was broken and my school bag which i’ve stuffed it underneath my seat was gone. school bag…. i got notes, got some leaflet i brought back from hk, earphone, oh, my harddisc with all my assignments inside (and i dont hv any backup), and…. my baby canon i mentioned in last post… isn’t it funny? i posted that i got a new dslr on last post n this post, i’ve already lost it. yes, its my fault for didnt bring it down. =(

5th April, after my class, i got up to my car n i found there’s a bird shit near to my car’s door n my pants. FINE i thought i got it when i got up to my car, but when i reached my house, i realsied my whole hand was full of bird shit and also my sterling….. seriously, i dont know how those shitsss got in my car =(

9th April, 12.40pm
i found my car was lost……… “ada orang tunda kereta ke tadi?” “ya, kancil kan?” “ok u pergi station 1 sane tengok itu map, sanalah dia orang letak kereta u” [ss15 MPSJ] ok i grabbed a cab n go to ss15, and the clever taxi driver dropped me at MMSJ which is Mahkamah Majistret Subang Jaya, brilliant.. i start walking around ss15, again and again. i asked a girl in the petrol station “is there any MPSJ nearby here?” “yea u go to the opposite road and go down and nearby a market there” another brilliant, that’s a parking lot la!! and it doesnt belonged to MPSJ, duh!! at lastttttt my savers came n picked me up n bring me to MPSJ Taipan and smartass government “oh sini bayar kompaun aje, u kena pergi sampai faber castell sane, USJ12 sane ambil” ok fine………….and yea at last i got my car after i paid the fine of 178. … i really hv to thank u guys, roland n woon for bringing me to so many places to get back my small little kancil and patrickoo ^^

ah ya, thanks for the dinner to TANG KIM LOY, TANG AH SOU, CH’NG WOON CHIEN, MAG TAK LENG, ALAN TEY SER YANG… altho the movie was really suckie, but, thanks for the dinenr n cakie=) it was great and im glad to hv such great dinner with all of u again… =)

ah, ive done some shooting with nana and it was a great experience.

it’s a wrap for holiday

its time to make a short little summary bout my holiday
altho it doesn’t goes like normal but its a fun filled holiday

hmmm let’s see, i had my camera, my cousin sis’s wedding, kurismasu party, and erm…. food n food?

kay lets start with my camera
people around me, sorry ive been repeating the same thing tat i wanted to have my own dslr since like years ago? (nah since like 1 yr ago.. its without the s behind the year)
been bugging wai’s bro, my cousin bro, shopssss, PARENTS…… haha
and at last, i got my first ever dslr which is CANON EOS500D on the 22nd of Dec 2009
thanks mummy n koko for getting this lovely kurismasuuuu present for me
i really love it and i’ll use it to the max!!
altho lots of toa-ians been asking me “why are u getting canon?” lalalala~~
all i can say is “its about the user”
i got it with a kit lens which i dont wish to have it but… budget wise… bear with it
mummy, thank you for getting me this dslr… i really loved it… n i appreciated it  ^^ *kiss kiss hug hug*

next up.. my cousin sister, Lim Chew Hwa wedding
ahhhh its a whole week full with smiles and cheers with all the relatives
from the first dinner til the last dinner, night before marriage, morning of the wedding day….
we laughed, we smiled, we talked, we cheered for this lovely couple Chew Hwa and Ken
these 2 names are all placed everywhere and been blessed by everyone
i hv to admit tat im so touched by the clips and my tears almost fall…
it reminds me the time we had since i was young til now, all the laughter… its so sweet
but seeing my pretty cousin sis with her wedding gown on, all the emotional feeling was replaced with smiles
in addition, this is my first time ever to join the whole progress of a wedding, all the tiredness came at once
ahhh i cant descirbe all the feeling and the scene with my lousy grammar… *emo* but….
i know, they’re gonna be happily ever after *LOVE*

last but not least… the little kurismasu party yesterday
it’s a blast, i never think of the resutls would be so great that all of us were so enjoy
each of us were to prepare a food and a present with 20bucks budget
and ends up, we have salads (me me me), mashed potato(my big bro), ondeh ondeh(mummy), kerabu meehoon, mi tai mek *drink*, pulut hitam (eldest aunt/ mama’s family), sushi  and puddings (youngest aunt’s family), few satays and pineapple (uncle’s family)… i guess i didn’t left out anything… OH! my mix fruits plate hohoho….
the food was really nice i mean… all of it! hmmmmm everyone reading this is gonna cursing i’ll gain FATs…
people, keep those cursing, i’ve already gained fats here LOL
after some photoshoots session, we had our present exchanged with lucky draw methods…
awww i want tat bread toaster!!!! but, people, how unfortunately, all the best present goes to my uncle family…. awwwwwwwwww….
i got a towel from papa, not bad (at least better than the towel my bro got LOL)
no matter what, we stil enjoyed the night, right? =)
i want to make  a pyjamas party on chinese new year!!!!! hahha

well during this holiday, i dont meet up as often like previously…
i didn’t do any figures as usual @@ god…
but i eat as usual
and felt so happy to be with my family as usual….

i guess tat’s a quick wrap up for this holiday, cant wait for new year and chinese new year to come…
angpao arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

have a nice day, people =)

[I Love My Family]

领悟

我以为我会哭
但是我没有
我只是怔怔望着你的脚步
给你我最后的祝福
这何尝不是一种领悟
让我把自己看清楚
虽然那共爱的痛苦
将日日夜夜
在我灵魂最深处
我以为我会报复
但是我没有
当我看到我深爱过的男人
竟然像孩子一样无助
这何尝不是一种领悟
让你把自己看清楚
被爱是奢侈的幸福
可惜你从来不在乎

啊!一段感情就此结束
啊!一颗心眼看要荒芜
我们的爱若是错误
愿你我没有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出
就应该满足

啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首来时路的每一步
都走的好孤独
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚 任意追逐
别再为爱受苦

这首歌，不曾让我落泪
但，它曾让我的眼泪在眼睛里打转
但，它曾陪着我入睡好几晚
旋律多么好听，歌词多么的痛
领悟，你领悟过什么？

im not a good boy! u all shud know tat

im not a good boy
my life sucks
my studies sucks
yea i do admit tat

but hey… my dear aunties
do u mind asking urself… “how good are my children doing?”
yea they might be graduated in good university, with good results…
but then again… who cares? parents like u care right?
i know… i know…
congratesss…claps…cheers.. how bout tat?

but hey please, dont make someone younger than u found out what’s in your mind easily… that’s shameful kay?
i know wat r u thinking when u’re talking to me!
i know what u feel bout my studies!
i know what u think bout my future!
and hey, list the name of the people tat looked down at u or ur children…
none of them? see…
no one ever looked down at u or even ur god damn children, so why the hell are u complaining bout me?!
aunty, i stepped on ur tail isit? or i ever complained tat ur style sucks?!
did i ever say im good in studies or did my parents ever praise me in front of u? well i dont think so
do u know how it feels when u said tat to me?
u shud know tat…  seriously… maybe someday… u should even feel tat!

it HURTS!! when u said “i think u dont look like someone who is really studying”

how wonderful u describe me
how beautiful u praised me
how excellent u made that statement
*thumbs up, aunty*

i know u all wont b reading my blog
but im gonna say this
i hate when u all start comparing
i hate when u all looked down at wat im doing
i hate when u all judge the value of my course
i hate when u all say something harsh to me
i hate when u all make some hideous critiques

well this is not the first time u all did this to me, and never judge someone younger than u are always stupid n dumb
i’ll respect u if u pay even a little tiny winny respect to me for the sake of im a human

yes, danny, u dumbass… complaining around….
yes i am! im not a good boy! u all shud know tat!

dont try to make fun with my temper, i wont kill, i wont bite but u never know what i can do

p.s.: children those people im complaining, please tell your parents that it will cost them alot if u planned to take design course… good luck…

bla bla bla… nights! danny, hv a good rest with anger =)

任性

孙燕姿。任性

眼睛很累，但我不想睡觉
很多功课，但我不想动手

我的脑袋里，并没有“画什么好，怎样做好我的magazine layout，也没有什么时候开始做”这些问题
我的脑袋，想着你
我的脑袋，担心着未来
我的脑袋，对满了一些负面的想法

他妈的

时间

之前：“我们不是要骂你，不是要唠叨你，你要知道我们做的所有事情都是因为爱你”
现在：“为什么我做的每件事情你们都要管？”
还记得你在我们小时候所说的话吗？
我领悟了

看着你的白发，心酸了
看着你的皱纹，心酸了
担心你太忙碌，你却以为我不想给你做工
担心你的健康，你却只选择听从别人的话
担心你的安全，你却往往把我的手甩开

对不起我没有办法拿到最好的成绩
对不起我没有办法当成医生或律师
对不起我21岁了还在念书
对不起我不能一只配在你们身边

还记得这句话吗？
“你这样每次牵我过路，你不在的时候，我怎么办？”
我不晓得你还记得吗，但，我永远都记得
所以，我从不浪费每一次牵你的手的机会

时间不只是把一个小孩转变成成人
时间不只是把我们的生活改变
时间不只是把我们的态度改变
时间不只是让我们长大
时间不只是为了做更多事情
时间，让我更爱你们

你
好好照顾你自己好吗？
你
好好在家里煮多点食物给我们吃好吗？
你
好好听话吃多点健康的食物好吗？
你
好好出门的时候小心点好吗？
你
好好爱自己好吗？
我真的很爱你，妈咪

佩宁阿姨

真正喜歡的東西不需要掩飾 也掩飾不料

有能力做喜歡的事情 很幸福=)

就是因为这一句，我跟你说了多一些
谢了，佩宁阿姨

话是这么说

话是这么说
但…事实呢？

有些人，会相信他身边的人的话
有些人，只能听他身边的人的话
有些人，只会相信他身边的人的话
有些人，只能相信他身边的人的话
有些人，选择相信他身边的人的话

而   有些人呢，只会默默的…说谎话

take it or leave it

事情真的发生了
现在我才发现，我有点太迟了
一开始，从他们身上和语气中还以为有点期望，但，这些，原来也不过是一个过程
我没有办法得到我预期中的安排

安排
他们给了我一个安排
为一个问题出现在我脑里，并不是我可以得到多少收获
而是
时间
大家拼了这么久，对我个人来说，我就是不想浪费任何一个时间
最后一天的谈判
我坐在那里
眼睛…没有办法专注在她的身上，因为我知道，我抬头，就会流泪
我很脆弱..我知道
但是…我只是在想说
做一个决定已经很难了，虽然我们还年轻，没有出过社会
也可能你们看过很多不一样的人用不一样的原因要求要解决那件事情
但是我很想说
我不是说要这样就这样
我不是一个潇洒的人
我担心了很久，我想了很久，衡量了，沟通了，才决定
结果，什么事情都好了，偏偏却让我被时间给拖累了下来

你们给我的安排，或许就像你们口中说的“都是为了你好”
是，我明白我也很感激
你们的态度，都很好
但是，每个人，真的真的会期望一个机会，盼望一个顺利
有些人会为了那一点点的好，而不顾一切
但
有些人却会为了那一点点的不好，而不顾一切，去冒险
你们也会说“每个人衡量事情的态度都不一样”
如果我今天走到你们面前说“我愿意冒这个险，想要这个机会”
你们…会给我吗？
因为，我正是那第二种人
就如他所说“如果你不需要浪费那时间和..金钱，那他们就没有任何利益了”
可能，这一句话，是对的，也可能是错的
但在这种环境下，我说得到的安排，我不得不承认，我有点信了

喝了，也吐了
我，想通了吗？
可能吧？

阿丹，take it or leave it.. 这就是你最后的选择

是新的开始……吗？

假期结束了，新的学期也开始了
这对每个人来说，都是新的开始，上个学期做得不好，就会下定决心要自己在新的学期好好努力
我也一样
下了这个决心
但是，我并没有去实现它

卫，1个月半的假期也结束了，他对这里的生活很不舍，非常不舍
但是没办法，也只能这样，不是吗？
大姐也到英国了，时间过了，所有事情也跟着我们的选择慢慢在改变
卫，就把这段时间，当成你向另一个阶段成长的考验吧
大姐，我真的很想过去找你，希望我可以做到^^你在那边，慢慢适应生活，就跟红毛联络多点感情，入乡随俗嘛~

我呢，就这样
新的学期已经开始了5个星期，说真的，我并没有真正的在做我最好的，很明显，不是吗？
说真的，这个星期，突然觉得，也突然看见了很多不一样的东西
现说明，我不是又要转行还是什么的，只是，我对这个科目慢慢失去信心
说不出任何理由，也没办法形容，就…这样…突然觉得有点辛苦
我知道，我给了大家千百个理由选择这一科，但是，每件事情，真的不是我们想象中的简单
是啊，现在的我，也只能硬硬熬过这些日子
看见大家都在进步，当然也希望自己跟大家一样，进步
看见大家都对这科怀着一颗“想要更好”的心，我，还能怎样？
我真的看见那些好画，不会兴奋很久嘛
给我看广告，让我思考
让我为了我的作品去坳，让我为了我的作品去解释，好不好？可以吗？

最近，我也参加了健身房
说了，也被当成一个笑话
认识我的人一定会笑说“说到现在，这么多年了，现在才参加？”
刚认识我的人一定会笑说“你不行的拉~”“你有时间吗？”“算了吧”
但是，我就是参加了

在写这个部落的时候，也是刚刚过了2009年的中秋节
今年的中秋节可说也是我的…第一次吧…（尴尬的勒）
我跟oo还有gie gie下午一起吃了韩国餐当午餐，并不是很好吃，也不是很特别
但是，难得的聚会，还是要珍惜
过后我就一个人到了卫的家
谢谢叶妈妈邀请我过来，我真的觉得很开心，毕竟这让我觉得我真的有了第二个家
到了家，没什么事情做，就帮了叶妈妈准备一些给晚上的点心和晚餐
晚餐，我在一个圆桌了，找个位子做了下来，感觉，很温馨
食物，也多到不行，叶妈还说我会觉得没什么食物呢
天阿，根本就太丰富了
吃了，就到卫的大阿姨家，跟往年一样，都在大阿姨家团聚庆祝
但是在到大阿姨家之前，我们到了圣佛庙，是新搬迁到的
之前久的，很快就要被拆了
我，还是喜欢久久的，毕竟，感觉比较对
到了大阿姨家，开始跟他的哥哥，弟弟，表姐们谈天
也吃了零食…（啊！有肉干）
大约1点，我们才回到家

我现在坐在这里
写着部落格
想着功课
无动于衷

安了，大家