之前：“我们不是要骂你，不是要唠叨你，你要知道我们做的所有事情都是因为爱你”
现在：“为什么我做的每件事情你们都要管？”
还记得你在我们小时候所说的话吗？
我领悟了
看着你的白发，心酸了
看着你的皱纹，心酸了
担心你太忙碌，你却以为我不想给你做工
担心你的健康，你却只选择听从别人的话
担心你的安全，你却往往把我的手甩开
对不起我没有办法拿到最好的成绩
对不起我没有办法当成医生或律师
对不起我21岁了还在念书
对不起我不能一只配在你们身边
还记得这句话吗？
“你这样每次牵我过路，你不在的时候，我怎么办？”
我不晓得你还记得吗，但，我永远都记得
所以，我从不浪费每一次牵你的手的机会
时间不只是把一个小孩转变成成人
时间不只是把我们的生活改变
时间不只是把我们的态度改变
时间不只是让我们长大
时间不只是为了做更多事情
时间，让我更爱你们
你
好好照顾你自己好吗？
你
好好在家里煮多点食物给我们吃好吗？
你
好好听话吃多点健康的食物好吗？
你
好好出门的时候小心点好吗？
你
好好爱自己好吗？
我真的很爱你，妈咪
真正喜歡的東西不需要掩飾 也掩飾不料
有能力做喜歡的事情 很幸福=)
就是因为这一句，我跟你说了多一些
谢了，佩宁阿姨
话是这么说
但…事实呢？
有些人，会相信他身边的人的话
有些人，只能听他身边的人的话
有些人，只会相信他身边的人的话
有些人，只能相信他身边的人的话
有些人，选择相信他身边的人的话
而 有些人呢，只会默默的…说谎话
事情真的发生了
现在我才发现，我有点太迟了
一开始，从他们身上和语气中还以为有点期望，但，这些，原来也不过是一个过程
我没有办法得到我预期中的安排
安排
他们给了我一个安排
为一个问题出现在我脑里，并不是我可以得到多少收获
而是
时间
大家拼了这么久，对我个人来说，我就是不想浪费任何一个时间
最后一天的谈判
我坐在那里
眼睛…没有办法专注在她的身上，因为我知道，我抬头，就会流泪
我很脆弱..我知道
但是…我只是在想说
做一个决定已经很难了，虽然我们还年轻，没有出过社会
也可能你们看过很多不一样的人用不一样的原因要求要解决那件事情
但是我很想说
我不是说要这样就这样
我不是一个潇洒的人
我担心了很久，我想了很久，衡量了，沟通了，才决定
结果，什么事情都好了，偏偏却让我被时间给拖累了下来
你们给我的安排，或许就像你们口中说的“都是为了你好”
是，我明白我也很感激
你们的态度，都很好
但是，每个人，真的真的会期望一个机会，盼望一个顺利
有些人会为了那一点点的好，而不顾一切
但
有些人却会为了那一点点的不好，而不顾一切，去冒险
你们也会说“每个人衡量事情的态度都不一样”
如果我今天走到你们面前说“我愿意冒这个险，想要这个机会”
你们…会给我吗？
因为，我正是那第二种人
就如他所说“如果你不需要浪费那时间和..金钱，那他们就没有任何利益了”
可能，这一句话，是对的，也可能是错的
但在这种环境下，我说得到的安排，我不得不承认，我有点信了
喝了，也吐了
我，想通了吗？
可能吧？
阿丹，take it or leave it.. 这就是你最后的选择
假期结束了，新的学期也开始了
这对每个人来说，都是新的开始，上个学期做得不好，就会下定决心要自己在新的学期好好努力
我也一样
下了这个决心
但是，我并没有去实现它
卫，1个月半的假期也结束了，他对这里的生活很不舍，非常不舍
但是没办法，也只能这样，不是吗？
大姐也到英国了，时间过了，所有事情也跟着我们的选择慢慢在改变
卫，就把这段时间，当成你向另一个阶段成长的考验吧
大姐，我真的很想过去找你，希望我可以做到^^你在那边，慢慢适应生活，就跟红毛联络多点感情，入乡随俗嘛~
我呢，就这样
新的学期已经开始了5个星期，说真的，我并没有真正的在做我最好的，很明显，不是吗？
说真的，这个星期，突然觉得，也突然看见了很多不一样的东西
现说明，我不是又要转行还是什么的，只是，我对这个科目慢慢失去信心
说不出任何理由，也没办法形容，就…这样…突然觉得有点辛苦
我知道，我给了大家千百个理由选择这一科，但是，每件事情，真的不是我们想象中的简单
是啊，现在的我，也只能硬硬熬过这些日子
看见大家都在进步，当然也希望自己跟大家一样，进步
看见大家都对这科怀着一颗“想要更好”的心，我，还能怎样？
我真的看见那些好画，不会兴奋很久嘛
给我看广告，让我思考
让我为了我的作品去坳，让我为了我的作品去解释，好不好？可以吗？
最近，我也参加了健身房
说了，也被当成一个笑话
认识我的人一定会笑说“说到现在，这么多年了，现在才参加？”
刚认识我的人一定会笑说“你不行的拉~”“你有时间吗？”“算了吧”
但是，我就是参加了
在写这个部落的时候，也是刚刚过了2009年的中秋节
今年的中秋节可说也是我的…第一次吧…（尴尬的勒）
我跟oo还有gie gie下午一起吃了韩国餐当午餐，并不是很好吃，也不是很特别
但是，难得的聚会，还是要珍惜
过后我就一个人到了卫的家
谢谢叶妈妈邀请我过来，我真的觉得很开心，毕竟这让我觉得我真的有了第二个家
到了家，没什么事情做，就帮了叶妈妈准备一些给晚上的点心和晚餐
晚餐，我在一个圆桌了，找个位子做了下来，感觉，很温馨
食物，也多到不行，叶妈还说我会觉得没什么食物呢
天阿，根本就太丰富了
吃了，就到卫的大阿姨家，跟往年一样，都在大阿姨家团聚庆祝
但是在到大阿姨家之前，我们到了圣佛庙，是新搬迁到的
之前久的，很快就要被拆了
我，还是喜欢久久的，毕竟，感觉比较对
到了大阿姨家，开始跟他的哥哥，弟弟，表姐们谈天
也吃了零食…（啊！有肉干）
大约1点，我们才回到家
我现在坐在这里
写着部落格
想着功课
无动于衷
安了，大家
its been weeks i never update any new entry
ive been so blur and so empty in my mind whenever it comes to update my blog
so many things to share, and i just don’t know how to start it
well, since its going to be the end of my holiday, seems to b a nice topic then
before this holiday started, ive been planning alot on what to do, what should i learn in this holiday, i have to finish my assignments before school started…
and yay…. stil the same, i cant seem to achieve any of it
i stil don’t know how to make kimchi, i stil unable to finish my assignments by NOW, and i did not take my time to learn cg D8 that’s pathetic
well nothing special happened in this holiday except a visit from wai n gie and we went to langkawi with siew
its been years i never go to langkawi, i’m kinda excited for that trip yet worried bout hini.. D8
we drive, we eat, we play, we sleep, we drink 8D
*will upload pics after i develope all the films*
and hmm….. im going to put on braces this coming sunday, 6th of September
just laugh however u all want …. babi -..-
im gonna train them into transformie and do assignments for me D8
ee ee ek ek 8D
ahhh yip choon wai ar yip choon wai…
dono how to start this blog XD
i know u since 2006
then we went out on the second day with your whole gang of frens
then i started to go to ur place, makan, makan XD
stil remember i gained weight so fast .. is like few kgs in few days
then we realised we had the same dream to pursue
piloting, that’s why we take Alevels bla bla bla…
its kinda coincidence right? have the same dream, have the same plan as well
but i gave up in the half way and change to a totally different field.. design field..
ahh this entry suppose to do something on u
Congratulation Yip Choon Wai
you officially became a private license Pilot on 29th of July 2009
seriously, im really proud of u.. knowing ur past as u told me u’re not a student tat wasn;t did really well academically
and now, u’re the top student in the piloting school..
i guess everyone around you also proud of u
but u better listen to everyone’s advises. ur parents and ur frens..
dont ever mess up your life when u’re working at outstation everything
alah dono wat to say anymore.. too many things
i’ve done the thing i wanted to do in this entry.. congratez u..
just good luck and always have a safe flight all the time ^^
u have an evil fren 8D
woke up at 10, roll on my bed until 11 8D
start preparing and suddenly… rained….. *speechless*
waited for half an hour then went out from house n went to pyramid for bowling with nad, jolene, lynn, popo n winloon
ahh… its been ages i never play this game… n the results…ah well….. pro pencuci longkang 8D
after finished 3 games, we went for lunch at shih lin n then…
DDR .. ahhhh….. i played for 6 games today… orz… sorry mummy but i really feels like play it crazily before i go back XD
went bec at 5 n start prepare myself for dinner with jon
went out from house at 5.30 coz i tot it will b jam like hell at tat time n i can reach there b4 7…
mana tau…. mana tau….. no jam at all… i reached there at 6… ENAM!!! ommmaa…. we supposed to meet up at 7
then i just went to his skul n hang around there.. ahhh i stil love fashion skul… altho there will b a lot of dramas in there but… i stil love fashion…
ah, i think one of my ex-classmate from TARC going to study there, Jasmine.. *jealous*
after a while we went to the so-called korea village at ampang there, i think its bside ampang point
then went inside a korean bbq restaurant… sorry i have to say tat… i smelled cockroaches okay!!!
ordered food, i dono wat to order coz i nv eat korean bbq so Jon just ordered pork n beef.. ah n a beef soup
first they served us cold mineral water, then side dishes.. guess how many side dishes they served…
T-H-I-R-T-E-E-N .. they served 13 side dishes.. all the kimchii thingy, all the seasoned thingy.. ahhh….
wait.. they stil served us a bowl of steamed egg.. ahh its normal but i like it…
i cant really remember what’s inside the 13 side dishes… i just remembered like kimchi, seasoned clams, seasoned anchovy (i like), seasoned potato, seasoned beansprout n… i dono ad
after tat, our bbq meat are served but i’ve been informed tat they will bbq it for us… *disappointed*
the waiter cook all the meat at once okay… cant they just cook half half half half? ish..
the meat is not reli special without the sauces they gave, and.. i prefer the porkie 8D
after side dishes, soup, rice, meat… they served us… hot green tea…
…..
wondering why they dont serve it earlier? XD
we’re trying to finish all the food on the table… then suddenly… they served us… watermelon..
ahhh they just wont stop serving us food XD
after dinner, we went straight away to Delicious at Ampang, Dua Residential.
we went there for the Bannofee and Chocolicious Sundae
we’re so full but… just cant resist the temptation of desserts…
i liek the lower ground of the restaurant.. i heard they only serve wines and some other stuffs but not those desserts we wanted to eat there… and there’s a grocery section there.. so cool
so we went up to second floor for our desserts.. the interior was so awesome and calming..
both of the desserts are heaven! really… HEAVEN!! worth trying!!
waiwai, giegie, oo… ill bring u all there…. okay ^^
these are some pics taken for the Korean BBQ and Delicious
then crapped there until 10.30, then fetch Jon to old klang road to meet up his fren
then..saya balik rumah…. alahhh….. i wan to go out la… so bored XD
gave wai a called and knew tat he’s actually drinking with his fren..
pilot life… ah well…
anyway, faster come back ar uncle wai… AJUSSHI!!!!(uncle)
u’re coming bec here next week… but by the time i’m already in hometown, come over with gie gie okay?
tat’s all for tonight… tomolo no plan until night..
yam cha with gie gie n oo at murni ^^
friday.. go back hometown…
mummyyy, daddyyy….. im coming back luuuuuu … wheeeeeeeeeee *excited*
yay… eveyrone, im in holiday now!!! wheee wang wang wang wang
first thing we did after we submitted our perspective finals was to grab a paratha then… DDR
omg this is the first time i tried on kaya n cheese flavor…. HEAVENNN…
after tat, DDR… damn it… a lot of IL student were there coz all of them went pyramid after submitted our works
fine…. continue playing until all of us tired 8D
5pm, went to oo’s place to pink her up.. grabbed a Benjo burger while im waiting for her.. might b the last burger b4 i go bec for my holiday? XD
then we went to midvalley… as usual? kay, actually i wanted to repair my sony bean but then the HQ closed ad
fine… we then had our dinner at a korean stall in The Gardens.. holy…. pretty pretty pretty…. the tauke so leng lui !!! zomg
we had a Kimchi Fried Rice which is out of my expectation…. coz it was super delicious… this is my first attempt to Kimchii Fried Rice
and we also had Sun Dubu Jige, Spicy Tofu Soup with rice.. this is my second time trying this, my first time was in Asia Cafe.. icant compare coz the ingredient they gave is kinda different… but it was stil really nice .. i liek their rice..
i think ill learn korean food during my holiday… i wan to learn their Kimchii fired rice… so nicee *drool*
after tat, we wandered around AS USUAL too… then oo helped her fren to get something from carrefour, i bought my Sesame Anchovy from Cheong Hong (i want more n more of this) and bought sketch book, with A2 papers for figures from The Artfriend.. ahhh… i spent 50 bucks in The Artfriend again..
wednesday scheduale : 12 Bowling with Nad, Jolene, Lynn, Popo n Winloon ; Dinner with Jon *korean food again*
been talking to some of my frens bout my recent feeling
im worried for my results for this term…
i dun wan to make any of my family members to feel disappointing…
n my mood even changed more when i read all my fren’s blogs, all those happiness n sadness came in the same time..
the one ive thinked about the most is “It’s already so hard to convince the world and you still have got to convince your own allies?” from Lawrence.
ive been doing works passionately and more patience in the early half term, but after tat, my attitude have been changed to “i just want to finish it” when i do work..
i cant figure out wats the thing tat turned me into this attitude…
jon said coz of my laziness, yea i admit it, im really a lazy 1 but i did tried not to do works last minutes but yet, always dragged until last minute to finish everything even tho i started somethign early..
ive been trying not to do works according to my mood, but.. better mood better work, isit true?
talked to ning too.. she has the same feeling as mine.. told myself to work really hard before this 3rd term started but yet… stil not reli worked out really hard.. she said im lack of confidence and interest…n i told her… i stil have my interest on something but not patience on everything im learning..
talked to JL too.. told her the same thing bout wat happened in this term.. n she said “change your attitude to “once in a life time”" it sounds serious right? yea it is…coz its kinda helped a lot to me on making me awake.. the reason she said so is because, we’re doing all these stuffs only once in our life time. everytime we redraw again, it won b exactly the same as the previous one… and this is so-called “masterpiece” said JL
i dono wat happened after half of the term, mayb my laziness really dragged me down, or mayb, im not inspired by something? i stil dont have patience to learn something tat i cant cope up, i stil give up whenever i think i cant cope up.. i know i shudn;t have these kind of thinking anymore, ill try.
